Thursday, March 8, 2012
Today marks 4 years of being married to my best friend…
On one hand it seems like just yesterday that I was walking down the aisle to my groom… and on the other hand I can’t even remember my life before Mike was a part of it (funny how that works!).
This past year in particular has been filled with some of the most joyous times but also undoubtedly some of the most trying times… We’ve laughed, we’ve cried, we’ve danced, we’ve prayed. Through it all, I’ve realized how truly blessed I am to have Mike as the man beside me in the good times and the bad (“For better or for worse”). He accepts me and loves me as I am… the good, the bad, and even the ugly.
This week is an extremely bitter-sweet week for me. Today marks our 4th anniversay (the sweet), however this week is also the same week that our baby was due to be born (the not so sweet).
Here we are 7 months after that horrid day and I can truly say that I have MUCH to celebrate and be thankful for. We are stronger as a couple, we have grown (and are continually growing) in our faith, and we are trusting in God’s timing (as hard as that may be sometimes).
Let me just say, my purpose in writing about this is NOT to receive sympathies from you guys. I just wanted to share with you guys the things on my heart in hopes that I can be an encouragement for someone else who’s walking this same road (I know how lonely it can be to feel like no one understands what you are going through).
The grieving process is just that… a PROCESS. When you think you’ve got it all under control… emotions swell up from out of nowhere and BAM it hits you like a ton of bricks (all over again). Guess what? That’s normal.
It’s a process full of ups and downs.
Even though we have yet to receive our heart’s greatest desire (children)… I want you to know that I can still say without abandon that my God is good. All the time. HE is in control, and we are trusting that.
This week I am choosing to find joy in the many things I have been blessed with: my incredible husband of 4 years, our supportive familes, a beautiful place that we get to call home, jobs that allow us to pay the bills, 2 dogs that make us laugh daily, and this blog that brings me so much joy (thanks to each.of.you.)! I have much to be thankful for, friends… MUCH.
Happy 4th Anniversary to my wonderful supportive, loving, hard-working, patient, rock.star. of a husband! I love you. 🙂
Photography by: Bob Palmer